A Real Reason

I walked away from my own life,

gave up and walked away on myself

I let myself drown in a sea of lies

trying to become someone else.

and now I'm a lurking dark shadow

unable to smile, love or laugh

frozen lips that frost the window

I look out of thinking of what I had

Looking back to where I was

I realize I had to slowly shed

everything that made me froze

but memories still linger in my head

the young love I remember was not love at all

you never knew me and don't know me still

I'm just letting myself fall and fall and fall

I try to bend the gods of time to my will

But there is no going back to the past

I am left alone with my memories

and even those don't seem to last

because they're nothing but fake stories

I make up and relive in my mind

everynight before I go to sleep

because I really don't want to find

a real reason to let myself weep.