It Doesn't Matter

And I guess it doesn't matter
I know that I seem scattered
I can't help feeling this way
it's as fucked up as they say

Walking around with this broken heart
the same one you tore right apart
I am everyone and nobody all at once
I am presence and I am absence

I can be everything and nothing
I spent all my life constantly acting
I am a fluke, an error, an accident
I bring pain, I'm your eternal ailment

And you... you are painfully beautiful
and I... I am excruciatingly disgraceful
we are surely not a passion meant to be
even all the people in the world can see

But sweet mistakes bring memories
of our burning lustful sweaty bodies
melting and dissolving into one...
One night's bliss is better than none.

Worlds Apart

The pain of birthing this world is not mine

but it's not yours either so why do you cry?

You drive around in your fancy cars with a smile

living fancy and living large on other people's dime

Your crocodile tears certainly don't move me

your mouth spews out words that'll never set me free.

Your vacant eyes are broken mirrors that can't show

if within your tanned manicured carcass lives a soul.

And as I sit here writing these simple words from the heart

I finally realize that we are absolutely worlds apart.

My Present Surroundings

 

I am already dead

but I'm still here.

I'm driven by pure anger!

I've stripped myself of fear.

She says one thing 

he spews out another...

My mind is blown away

by one and the other.

They're so precious!

So fucking brilliant

with their bought degrees

that aren't worth a cent!

All they have is the right name

and know all the right people

I'm bored, tired of this game.

I'm surely not as feeble

As they are known to be.

Trust is ill spent on them.

They live to pretend

but will never be your friend.

They're liars and backstabbers

waiting for fresh new prey.

They can have my carcass

I hope they choke on me!

I am already dead

but I'm still here.

I'm driven by pure anger!

I've stripped myself of fear.

She says one thing

He spews out another...

My mind is blown away

by one and the other!

They're so precious!

They're fucking brilliant

with their bought degree

that aren't worth a cent!

All they have is the right name

and know all the right people

I'm bored, tired of this game.

I'm surely not as feeble

as they are known to be.

Trust is ill spent on them.

They live to pretend

but will never be your friend.

They're liars and backstabbers

waiting for fresh new prey.

They can have my carcass

I hope they choke on me! 

Me and My...

 

Me and my heart

have different opinions

Me and my eyes

can't read the captions

Me and my brain

solve complications

Me and my feet

Walk for miles

Me and my hands

wipe tears from my eyes

Me and my mouth

spew out old sighs...