I miss the life I should’ve had and the one I’ll never have.
No one will ever truly know me
Because I don’t even know myself.
We’re only left with the hand that was dealt
And everything that I ever have felt
Is nothing compared to what I have suffered
And all the courage I’ve ever mustered
Was but a drop of water in a vast sea.
I am not strong. I am not happy. I am not the one.
I am just another face in a crowd
That you will never see or even notice
I yell out your name but not so loud
I close my eyes and dream that we kiss
I close my eyes as I lay in my hospital bed
I close my eyes and play back all that I’ll miss
I close my eyes and I think that I’m dead
I open them but I fall asleep again instead…
