Dear David

Dear David,

I think of you often and you’re the person I want to tell all the good things that happen to me first. And the bad ones too. But you really never listened. You were always so eagerly waiting for your time to speak and for me to listen. And I listened... and I tried to help. I don’t think I could though because you wouldn’t listen. And so I stopped listening too. You drifted away and I tried for that not to happen, but eventually I gave up. Still, I miss talking to you even though you don’t really listen.

I got promoted at work a few weeks ago. I wanted to tell you all about and share how excited and scared I am... but I deleted your number. I didn’t want to bother you anymore. I felt like I was a burden. Also, you were avoiding me and ditching my calls. I ripped off the band-aid. Odd enough, I felt free. But I still miss you.

Raw

I’m emotionally charged

My feeling are raw.

I want to love someone

But I don’t love myself.

How can I love someone else

If I don’t even love myself?

Sometimes I just wonder 

If I’ll ever love at all.

Yesterday

Yesterday I came home and I cried...

I was so happy! I went to work and loved every minute! I got home and I saw on Facebook that Steven Tyler opened a home for abused children. And this hockey player went out of his way for a tiny human... I felt like there’s still some good in the world. And there’s always hope. And no one can take hope away from anyone!