I will be myself again

You need to feel it!
You need to bleed
and breathe it!

let it fill you up
and drown you
there's nothing but silence

but the streets are filled
with laughter and joy
all things you avoid

nothing but silence
let it push you down
snuff all sounds

the rain hits the windows
such loud noisy rain
feelings coming back again

push it all down
hide it away from sight
away from any light

I need to feel it!
I need to bleed,
I need to breathe it!

I need sound and pain
laughter and music again
rain falling on my face
and a tiny kitten to chase

I need to feel it.
I am bleeding,
I am breathing.

I will be myself again...