Over Now

My coffee has gone cold
Feels just like winter
But the sun is gold
And I am here all alone

Waiting... breathing
The sound of my breath
Seems so absolving
Like I'm ready for death

My heart shatters
My eyes are the ocean
But it doesn't matter
I'll strip all emotion

Naked of all feeling
Forgetting myself
To start my healing
Becoming someone else.

I shouldn't be surprised
It's always the same
I am loved then despised
And I burn in the flame

Of your sweet lies
I forget myself once more
And hide behind my sighs
Like so many times before.

But it's all over now
My heart is a hard stone
That you carved somehow
And now I want to be alone.

Stale Words

Stale words unspoken
Over imaginary coffee
A heart that's broken
Eyes that cannot see

Hands missing touch
Chapped virgin lips
Happiness on a crutch
Nothing left but this

Your ghost haunting me
Warm breath on my skin
Old words taunting me
Making my head spin...

Where did it all go?
I am falling once again
And I think you know
I'm the fool in the rain

Where are you now?
I am falling once again
I can't stop somehow
Just say my name...

I'll wake to the sound
Of a voice I once knew
That is once more found
In you... always you.

Coffee

Silence broken and shattered
by simple words and stories
it was all that mattered
a chance to burn new memories

Coffee being the universal drink
to which all people mingle to
and I won't even dare blink
at a chance to have coffee with you

I will gush like a schoolgirl
hanging on your every word
Like they've never been heard
never mind the rest of the world

Let us sit and sip our coffee
and between awkward smiles
you will actually see me
and stay for a little while

You'll brush the hair from my face
and I'll feel your warm breath
on my skin and I'll feel safe
from everything... even death.

Substance Infusion

I am high and wet
infused by booze
my mind is set
with eyes translucent

the moon is hidden
behind dark skies
and I am smitten
by his disguise

I fall in a trance
drugs and alcohol
make me dance and dance
to no sound at all

emptiness is filled
by this substance infusion
that dulls dreams unfulfilled
and numbs all confusion

the glass weighs heavy
and my hand is swollen
I can't up and leave
my life has been stolen

there is nothing left
but substance infusion
and memories of theft
without any conclusion.

The Beginning

Where I end he begins
But I sometimes wonder
If I ever begun
And if he will ever end...

When I inhale
He exhales.
When he smiles
I cry...

When he sleeps
I am awake.
As he dreams
I watch over him.

When I am tired
He is filled with energy
And as he walks
I crawl...

My end is his beginning
But my beginning has no end
Because with true love
There's no difference at all...

Obsession

it creeps in slowly
without you knowing

it hits you hard
like a ton of bricks

it leaves a scar
that no one can fix

it cripples your mind
and numbs your soul

suddenly you're blind
to the rest of the world

it burns right through
your soft perfect skin

it doesn't become you
but it's your favorite sin

but when you close your eyes
and dreams flood your mind

you drown in all your sighs
a fake life to entertwine

This obsession you have
isn't obsession at all

it isn't all that bad
but you're afraid of the fall

you can't stop thinking of
if this is only love...?

Simple Soundtrack

mom crashed dad's mercedes
he wasn't too happy about it
that's what happens when ladies
- he said - drive a stick shift

mom didn't even care
it's only a car - she said
but I think she won't dare
take out the car again

dad called up his mechanic
the wife ruined the paint job
his voice had a hint of a panic
but mostly he's just a snob

trivial things such as these
stick to me like crazy glue
I feel like no one else sees
how life is annoyingly through

Life is bitching and moaning
it's pintching every penny
it's screwing and fucking
it's gossiping plenty

about this and that
about you and her
I can't settle for that
I'll never be her...

I'll never be anyone but me
I'll be crashing my own car
and I'll get up and see
that it's not very far

what life has in store for me
but will I accept it...?
will I be content or even happy?
there are many things I won't admit

especially about what's inside
their life is my soundtrack
that I use to safely hide
the feeling that I can't hack...

Listen

Listen... don't hear.
Listen without fear
Listen from the start
the thump of your heart
Listen to the world
and release your soul
Listen with your mind
Listen and unwind
Listen to my voice
you don't have a choice
Listen to the night
and listen to the light
listen to every thing
listen to her sing
see her glisten
close your eyes and listen...

I don't want to...

I don't want to speak
because I'm too weak
I don't want to touch
it'll be too much...
I don't want this heart
you'll tear it apart
I don't want to break
but I know it's fake
I don't want to feel
I know it's not real
I don't want to joke
I just want to smoke
I don't want to think
I just want a drink
I don't want to hear
I give in to fear
I don't want to see
I just want to be
I don't want to fuck
you're shit outta luck!
I don't want to move
I just want to groove
I don't want to sing
all I do is sing...
I don't want to talk
I just want to walk
I don't want to dream
I just want to scream
I don't want to smile
let me sleep awhile
I don't have a soul
just fuck the world
I dont want to cry
I just want to die!

Exhaustion

Eyes deceived
by warm desire
soul deceased
consumed by fire.

Words unspoken
cloud the mind
heart is broken
always blind.

A lump of flesh
without a purpose
unable to refresh,
just decompose.

Knackered anxieties
massacred love
fading memories
I can't think of...