seeing is believing

I'm way up high
I can touch the sky
I swam in the sea
but it was too early
I walked in the rain
now I smile again
and I lay in the sun
laughing and having fun.
I bathe in moonlight
and embrace the night
I touch your satin skin
and give in to sin...
Lust and greed
is what I feel...
I burn for you
a flame of blue
that never fades
burning through decades
melting and fusing
our bodies as one
cursing and refusing
to come undone.
We're molded like hot wax
into one perfect being
able to open our eyes and relax
because seeing is believing...

Last Night

Last night
I got lost in you
the fear of love
was paralyzing
the fear of loss of self
was agonizing
the fear of sadness
was mesmerizing
the fear of fear itself
breeds madness...
Past ghosts
fade in and fade out
bringing numbed doubt.
But hope creeps in
like a dark shadow
of a mad man warped in sin
that kills tomorrow...
The daze left by years that pass,
as slow or as fast as you can imagine,
breeds love and sorrow that never last.
And so we doubt what is destined...
A tired body walks the edge of a knife
doubting fate and destiny,
wondering about life
and decisions that were hasty...
A battered soul that hungers
for what is denied...
A banshee that banters
to announce someone that died...
They are all a part of me,
screaming and yearning to be free...
Love was lost and now is found
in flames of desire
that burn me to the ground
and turn into my funeral pyre...

My Love Is...

my love is a flickering light
a star that shines so bright
it's a noisy silence,
a dark brilliance,
a fire that does not burn,
a thought that doesn't turn...
it's a sane madness,
tears without sadness.
My love is blind faith,
an everlasting flame
that burns deep within
purifying past sin...
It is a steady sea
that brings you to me.
It's a whisper in the night,
an unbeatable fight.
My love is calm,
a poem, a psalm...
It is intensity
burning through eternity.
It is power,
a blissful shower...
It defies time
and a poets rhyme...
My love is blind
and laid on the line...
It is passion free of reason
it is song to every season...
It's all I think of
because you are my love...

Lost in Thought

Lost in thought
the ghost in you
wanders around lost
in a night of blue

searching for happiness
as I have sought...
escaping madness
and avoiding doubt

No sorrow nor pain,
No love nor winning,
No loss nor gain,
life is just living...

The world is deserted
as our two bodies melt
I think how I yearn for it
and this lust I never felt

takes over my being
and burns me inside
I surrender to you smiling
like an innocent child...

And falling asleep
safe from all harm
never felt so sweet
here in your arms...

the thunderstorm

The poet in me speaks louder
my words are bridges to other worlds
the thunderstorm ahead
fills my heart with dread

because destruction is at hand
and even though I do what I can
what I want and what I must
are both what I cannot trust...

Confusion brews within
I try not to give in
but this fight I cannot win...

There's no time for thought
and all I ever sought
the thunderstorm has brought...

the sun between her legs

With legs widely spread
She tries to hide the sun
crazy, insane, afraid
nervously looking for fun
the sun between her knees
is caught and it burns
everything she sees
and everything she yearns
disposable thoughts
have hidden meaning
they move within you
and silence her feelings
Liars come and go
the sun remains
broken without flow
bound to her chains...
One day she'll set it free
One day she'll let it go...
For now she still bleeds
and is full of woe...
her heart bursts out
like confetti in the air
spreading doubt
too much to bare...
the passion she craves
will never come
we're all slaves
under love's thumb...

The One

I am the girl who came from the sea
I'm the girl who doesn't know how to be...
I'm the one you want to kiss
I'm the one who'll bring you bliss...
I am the girl of your dreams
who came to silence your screams...
I'm the one you'll want to meet
with whom no one can compete...
I'm the girl who'll make you smile
the one who'll always walk that extra mile...
I'm the girl with the softest skin
the one that will make you sin...
I'm the girl you'll want to taste
I'm the one whose time you won't waste...
I'm the one you'll want by your side
I'm a girl with nothing to hide...
And I'm the one who'll always be here
always loving and sincere...
I'm the one who'll hold your hand
to walk with you on grass or sand...
I'm the one you'll pledge your life to
as I pledge mine to you...
I'm the girl you'll want to keep
the one who'll make you fall deep
into a pool of everlasting love
from which you'll never climb out of...
I'm the girl, you know it's true
I'm the only one for you...
I am the girl who came from the sea
and I'm the one who'll set you free...

Psycho Killer - Talking Heads

This is one of my favorite songs by the Talking Heads (the video is an amateur "something" I found on youtube... I was just after the song... the rest is not so relevant... you can still watch it... whatever!). I still love listening to it today. It attaches itself to your brain and you can't stop singing it... it's AWESOME! I've been mumbling it these past weeks... everywhere... even when I go grocery shopping. Will I mumble it (maybe shout it?) when I go to the dentist? Absolutely!

About the word "absolutely"... I love it! I think it's my favorite word in the whole world. I'm obsessed by it! I love saying it! It sounds... oh, soooo sexy! The way it rolls from the tip of your tongue... I keep saying it over and over and over... when I'm alone I say it out loud... when I'm around people I think it... I feel it... I sometimes even whisper it... or mumble it and people ask me "what did you say?" and I reply "nuthin"... It's my recent obsession... Am I crazy? unstable? a lunatic? psycho? who cares... I'm just me... ABSOLUTELY! :)

your silence is deafening...

The sun stings my eyes
and burns my skin
I live in a darkness
brought by sin...

your silence pierces
my broken soul
and it slowly
melts away my world

lack of words
isn't lack of feeling
you're silent
but I'm still believing...

a truth persists
yet still unknown
I'm secretly yearning
for what you've shown

I'm running from nothing
I haven't a clue
I slip into a dream
to try to find you...

Still the silence prevails
it's making me deaf
only my ghost remains
humbled by death...

I Miss You...

I miss you... My world stops when you're not around... my heart stops when I don't see you... I can't breathe when I don't hear your voice... My soul escapes my body when you're not here... Food loses taste, music loses it's magic, books are meaningless and paintings have no color... I wonder where you are and what you're doing... I wonder when you'll come again and bring me back to life...
Time stopped since you went away... everyone else is moving and I am standing still... all alone... waiting for you...