Last Night

Last night
I got lost in you
the fear of love
was paralyzing
the fear of loss of self
was agonizing
the fear of sadness
was mesmerizing
the fear of fear itself
breeds madness...
Past ghosts
fade in and fade out
bringing numbed doubt.
But hope creeps in
like a dark shadow
of a mad man warped in sin
that kills tomorrow...
The daze left by years that pass,
as slow or as fast as you can imagine,
breeds love and sorrow that never last.
And so we doubt what is destined...
A tired body walks the edge of a knife
doubting fate and destiny,
wondering about life
and decisions that were hasty...
A battered soul that hungers
for what is denied...
A banshee that banters
to announce someone that died...
They are all a part of me,
screaming and yearning to be free...
Love was lost and now is found
in flames of desire
that burn me to the ground
and turn into my funeral pyre...