Let's get lost

I wake up and pull myself together
ready for the shackles of society
that will keep me bound here forever
and even love can't set me free...

I drive to work thinking of you
wondering if you hear my thoughts
maybe you can feel it too
this thing that keeps me out of sorts

The night falls and still I am alone
all dressed up and red lips glossed
but everyone I ever knew is now gone
So just for tonight let's get lost

You're a stranger navigating my mind
fighting reason no matter the cost
I am candied weirdness hard to find
But just for tonight let's get lost...

Too Late

I would much rather be

in other company

I would rather die

than keep watchful eye

on this society...

They pretend and emulate

the latest fashions

while I think of our fate

and of small fractions

of bliss that came too late...

Not that into You

She's not that into you
should echo in your head
nothing you can say or do
will get her back in your bed

she won't change her mind
not even for a split second
she's trying to be kind
but won't come when you beckon

I am just not the one
But still you can't seem to see
you're blinded by the sun
you made me to be...

I am nothing you need
you project your dreams
on me to be freed
of your midnight screams

that echo through your dark past
I am not your sweet perfection
and your dream won't ever last
because it's fueled by fleeting distraction

Still Alive

You might not love me
but I don't really care
the lost ghost I see
is not really there...

you don't even want me
but I'm fine like I said
It's just old history
like the love we shared

I am still breathing
and I'm still around
my heart's still beating
but it makes no sound

And I'm surviving
all on my own
I've done all my crying
and now I've grown.

I am still alive
I drink my tears
and eat my pride
but I will survive...

The Cow

A big old fat cow
with golden-straw hair
that's who I am now
but I don't really care

bad habits now gone
but madness subsides
and all that I've done
In memories resides

age takes a toll
in body and mind
I am no longer bold
life hasn't been kind

this fat cow is numb
and doesn't want to play
I just lay in the sun
dreaming of better days.

There's noting I can do
the world has made me this way
this cow is sad and blue
and has nothing to say...

Wishing

I wish for you every lonely night
like a blind man wishes for sight
Sometimes I miss what I never knew
whispers and random thoughts of you
that make me happy and other times sad
but all the time missing what I never had.
I look out my fogged-up window
and I see time stand still for you
I close my eyes and whisper your name
but you're going back the way you came
I sit at the foot of my old bed
searching for memories that are dead
rotting slowly deep within myself
wishing I could be somewhere else.
you always knew I wish only for you
I wish you could wish for me too...

Yesterday

Yesterday I was another person
Now I'm old but still feel young
still waiting for my happy ending
and my blood is hot, it's boiling
I swear you can hear my heartbeat
like the thumping of heavy feet
You can hear it a mile away
it mutes all you have to say.
One day I'll put out the sun
to forget and hide I was smitten
I swear, I swear I'll make it rain
It'll wash away the filth again
It'll clean the lies you fed me
I swear one day you'll see
You will start to see me as I was
and your thoughts will all pause
You will want to rewind time
you'll fall and back you'll climb
But I'll be gone forever...
and forever will turn into never.

Dreams of you

I am tortured with dreams of you
I always wake up in a sweat
I don't know what I should do
and I don't know what to regreat
I don't want to get out of bed
I want to sleep my life away
while you live quietly in my head
with a smile and nothing to say
that's how I remember you,
And that's what no one else sees...
I always wake up feeling blue
and I fall down on my knees
but I don't know how to pray
and I don't know how to lie
I don't know how to show or say
all these feelings that I hide...

Just another face in the crowd

Sometimes my inner voice is so loud
picking at the scabs of old wounds
I'm just another face in the crowd
walking, smiling, singing out of tune
So many people around here
and still I am alone
in a madness they fear
will turn me into stone...
But feelings run deep
even deeper than madness
but all the feelings that I keep
all turn into sadness...
I'm just another face in the crowd
hoping, dreaming impossibilities
talking to myself out loud
seeing what no one else sees.

Just like me

All the people that pass me by
are living nightmares
They can't scream or cry
Because no one cares
They're all made of paper
easily torn apart
because nothing is sacred
they walk around with broken hearts
they are just like me!
And I don't know how to live
I just want to be free
and get rid of all I have to give
because it's bursting at the seams
This love I hid from the world
speaks louder than my screams
even though it's buried deep within my soul...