SILENCE

This silent room I'm in is slowly choking me. The silence is all around me! It makes me want to scream and rip it trhough as if it were a piece of paper... but paper cuts the skin and it makes me bleed... the red blood tints the white paper... and in slow motion I realize the beauty of color... red... passionate and warm... spread across the white paper... designing patterns that reveal secrets no one else knows... I start to forget about the silence... and I swear I can hear the blood flowing in my veins. I can hear everything around me... I am one with the universe. As I think this, my eyes are shut and I can see and feel everything. But then I remember you... and my whole world comes crumbling down on me... and I get overwhelmed and buried alive in thoughts of you... I am tormented by dark thoughts... thoughts I wish I never had... thoughts I want to kill... thoughts you planted in me and know they grow like weeds that destroy a perfect garden...

Now that you have silenced yourself and you no longer exist in my world I realize that there's a hole the size of the universe inside of me... a black hole that ate my heart and left me felleing nothing... absolutely nothing! All that was feeling in me is dead. I am mellancoly! I am apathy! I am silence! I am nothing...