Risen

At night I lay awake in bed
Staring at the white ceiling
Satisfying sloth instead
of opening up to feelings

Unspoken words eco in my head
A wonderful lover that doesn't care
despite all the tears that I shead
and a heart that was open and bare

For him to plunder and shatter
and silently wishing I was dead
I think about what doesn't matter
I think of lies that lie ahead

Flickering lights surround me
My soul escapes this weary prison
from these hot ashes I can see
That my heart has once more risen...