Disappointment

Ripe with certain hope
I walked confident each day
but I hit a slippery slope
and fell down all the way!

Always wait-listed
it strikes me as a shock
for I am not dim-witted
so why shouldn't I talk?

Always outside looking in
I see all that I am missing
I watch everyone else win...
they're like snakes hissing

poisoning me with their venom
flapping tongues bitter words
to them sound like an anthem
to me sound like plotting lizards...

I am seen as simple prey
what they do not know
Is that this is just my way
of dealing with my foe.

Ignoring idiots is what's best
no matter how much they hiss
they shall fall like all the rest
and all of them I do dismiss.

I think of dreams they shatter
and I don't know who to be...
I don't exist and I don't matter
but one day I shall be free...

SOMETHING

Give me something to sing about
because I'm all tapped out
and I seem to have lost my mind
searching for what I'll never find.

Give me something to talk about
can't you see I'm all stressed out?
All the people in this lonely world
have love and perfect shiny souls.

When will I stop and sing?
When will I see what life brings?
When will I find true love?
what am I thinking of...?

there is none left for me
even though they say it's free...

Give me something to cry about
I lost my voice now I can't shout
I am in my cold bed all alone
everything I had is now gone...

Give me something to be mad about
I am lost and I'm freaking out!
Politics don't keep me warm at night
I'm all worn out, I just can't fight...

There's nothing out there for me
so leave me alone, let me be!

Give me something to dream about
I'm drowning in my own self-doubt.
In the world in my dreams I am free
to be whom ever I want to be.

But there aren't any dreams left for me
Am I the only one who can see...?

Hungry Beasts

 

Drunk on given power

they take and they take!

Now is the time, now is the hour

for us to take back and shake

our fists in anger and scream

against all this injustice...

We, who dare to dream

of harmony and bliss.

We, the people demand

the end of disparity

brought by government's hand.

We deserve to be free!

The rights given by the book

are stripped by hungry beasts that never

give back what they took

and there is no we, only me

still dreaming and hoping

for the people to wake and shout as loud

as a noise only the world can make. 

Now, Forever or Never

There once was a boy from the city
who met a girl from a small town
Who couldn't bring himself to believe
that she would always hang around.

He never saw himself as she did
Always wrapping himself in darkness
pulling back and pushing aside
everyone who dared bring happiness.

And one day with tears in her eyes
she slowly started to peel back layers
that hid himself in a pool of lies
disguised as fool's prayers...

Then he stopped and saw her
as if for the very first time
he started to believe in forever
built on love and rhyme...

This is a story of possibility
of love lurking in every corner
It could be you or it could be me.
It could be now, forever or never.

Who Is It...

 

Who am I? I forgot myself...
I remember falling asleep
but woke up as someone else
who can't smile or weep

I am like everyone else
I work, eat and sleep
and I am not myself...
I wake up and drag my feet

remembering who I was
faded memories revived
while I slowly pause
and realize how I'm deprived

of all that I ever wanted
peace, happiness, love...
And now I am haunted
because all I think of

is of what I never knew
feelings burning within
and dreams of you
caressing my soft skin.

And the last thing I remember
is closing my eyes for a kiss
now I'm here, I surrender
but you I'll always miss

The one I never met
the one I never kissed
the one that I can't get
someone on my mailing list...

From zero to death

 

I'm either all in or not in at all

you're waiting for me to trip and fall

I have to stop to catch my breath

my love for you goes from zero to death

in between there is only emptiness

as I watch you fall into the nothingness

that is in my mind erasing all thought

my love for you goes from zero to lots

What comes after zero? is it nothing?

because I am still waiting for everything

something like I never had before

my love for you goes from zero to more

and when everything I ever wanted fails

I will cut through and open new trails

Even though you're never there and scath

my love for you goes from zero to death...

I Never...

I never looked in your eyes

I never felt your sweet touch

I never got caught in your smiles

I never did, it was too much

You never did look back

you never cared or did feel

you never were what I lacked

it feels you were never real.

I never did hold back

I never looked above

I never once lacked

Or did feel your love... 

Love's Loss

I have a hole in my heart
that at times seems to burn
from the very first start
it has been an elaborate urn.

I blow away love's ashes
towards the deep blue sea
where a perfect wave crashes
always reminding you of me...

for my temperament is unsteady
and I crash or flicker light
just like our beloved sea...
you are the day and I the night

Too different to be together
yet attraction slowly seeps in
and like the moon, wanted forever
I let you get under my skin...

But as daylight kills the dark
you came in all your splendor
and ripped out my simple heart
the same that I had surrendered

to you... only you, my lost love
my murderer, death in disguise
and I, something you dispose of
and you, the only one I dispise!

BROKEN

You just stood there

hauntingly beautiful

with an ageless stare

and words irrefutable

my thick raised eyebrow

caught you and made you smile

but you never did allow

for it to be more than a while

Though I know there is no forever

I would refuse that light of dawn

because I know it is far better

than an old beggar's song.

That is what I sing now

the voice of the lark died

I don't quite know how

or when or how it tried

to make itself heard

by the staggering child

owner of a thick beard

spewing delectable lies

With clear eyes that burn

the sould of any woman

I too for him yearned

but he was clearly adamant

I was left behind alone

living on faded memories

and they too will be gone

as do all ambiguities.

All I Have to Give

I feel nothin, I'm numb

my heart skips a beat

though I'm not having fun

I just drag my feet

and lower my head

trying not to think about

all that's been said

Sometimes I just want to shout!

People don't know...

they don't know me!

They just like a good show

so how can they judge me?

I am nothing but myself

a free spirit trying to live

I can't be someone else

this is all I have to give.