Forever and Never

 

I am the tide you cannot bind
a love forever untold
a secret laid at your feet
a whisper sounding crisper
like madness taking over sadness.

I am a fever, a believer
the calm before dawn
I am mother and daughter
I am lover and the other
loneliness and actress.

I am nature, I am closure
I am the tear you most fear
the touch that is too much
I am the scream you dream
the death defying rath

an itch you cannot scratch
I am the heart you tore apart...
I am the word you cannot speak
the concept you cannot grasp.
I am forever and I am never.

A Story

 

The stories I had to tell

are muffled by the cold

they were all I had to sell

but shall remain untold

I don't want to go outside

I want to be left alone

with all the dreams that died

before they were known...

there is nothing left to share

no more tears, no more love...

it's all up in the cold air

but it's what you can't get rid of

and the clock strikes eleven

while I'm sitting on the couch

longing to be forgiven

and I slouch and slouch...

I give up and give in to sleep

and as I lay quietly in bed

I realize there's no love nor heat

it was something you said

there's nothing left inside of me

I have no life, I have no time

nothing left for me to see

I'm a victim of a foul crime

you left and never looked back

the tears cut through my face

no one here to pick up the slack

nothing left but an empty space

that will never again be filled

because there is nothing left

what I tore down I can't rebuild

and what you said I cannot forget...

The End of the World

 

I was told the world would end today
But today dawned and today set
and still I am here feeling this way

Each hour that passed I would fret
but the world did not end this day
even though others thought it may

I sat in silence imagining death
I think it will end another day
but obviously not today.

the hour struck and I held my breath
but the world refused to end that day
no matter what anyone had to say

Now I sit and wonder when will it end?
it ended for you with a lie
it will end for me when I die.

My Dreams

 

My dreams cut the night

like the sun's piercing light.

They hurt my eyes

and are filled with lies.

They haunt me

and taunt me

but still I'm in my bed

living inside my head...

I'm Not Looking Back

 

My thoughts escape my mind

and create a perfect line

that I utter in pure confidence

surrounded by awkward silence.

I still remember your smile.

You stuck around for a while

but I'm as constant as the wind

and turned your smile into a grin.

Nothing... nothing will bring me back.

No, no... I'll never pick up your slack.

I never felt as you feel

in my world nothing's real

I push through my own darkness

facing my demons and my monsters.

But nothing, I said nothing, will ever bring me back!

No, oh no! I'm never looking back...

You told me I broke your heart

But it was already torn apart...

All the qualities you lack

are the reason I'm not looking back...

La Doucherie

 

 I can see through you

through your perfect smile

and your perfect skin...

You are the personification of sin!

But I don't know what to do...

...I'm so drawn to you.

We're from different realities

but these feelings I can't appease!

Your stare burns me up inside

and I feel I'm going out of my mind!

And I would do anything

If you'd see anything in me!

if you'd only see me,

if you'd only hear me sing...

My jackass attitude

makes me seem so rude.

How long will it take

for you to realize I'm a fake?

About You

 

I could never explain

how irrelevant you are to me

but everyone thinks you're so witty.

And I just think you're an ass.

Everytime you walk towards me

I just turn away.

No one really knows

that I don't really feel that way

About you...

About you...

When I hear you talking

I just feel like puking

And you make me feel insane

because I have nothing to gain

From you...

From you...

And I...

... can't stop thinking about you!

I can't stop talking about you!

My mind is totally gone!

What the hell is going on?

It's you! It's all...

...about you...

...about you...

Nothing to Fear

Give me your hand

and I'll lead you down
holding you close to the end
until we're both under ground

And don't mind the dark, my dear
don't mind the cold, I'm right here.

Our thoughts still break through
but there's not much to do
as our bodies slowly turn into dust
and our memories are forever lost.

Trust in our fates, my dear
hold on, there's nothing to fear.

My heart, it was true
but you broke it in two
when you let go of my hand
I tried to go on but I can't.

And it still isn't clear
why you let go, my dear.

As I slowly close my eyes
as I choke on my sighs
I hear you laugh through the dark
sounding like the dawn's first lark.

And I don't mind the dark, dear
because I have nothing to fear.

Listen...

 

Listen! Listen... the wind moves.

It brings such fatal news...

The person I was before

has suddenly closed the door

to future exciting possibilities...

why? no one else ever sees

the magic that dwells within

even after all that I have given.

My body can't keep up with my mind

surely it came from above as a sign

that my time here is almost lost

and I vaguely wonder what the cost

of a life barely lived is nowadays...

Maybe it's just another phase

and this too shall eventually pass

but sometimes I am made of glass

and your words bring me down

they break me and you steal my crown...

Enjoy the thorns that prick your forehead

Enough is enough! and enough has been said...

Life As I Know It...

They tell me to shut the fuck up
and always try to brainwash me.
But all I desperately want
is to be happy, safe and free...

They want me to be someone else
to fit their perfect standards. 
But I can't be nothing but myself
I don't care about any awards.

Do you look in the mirror often?
If you do, do you like what you see?
I do fear I might be forgotten
because the cows give milk for free.

But I keep trying to push forward
I shove some people along the way
sometimes I stop because I'm bored
or simply because I have nothing to say.