The Blues

Last post I was psyched about the blues band that was playing at the local book fair... but I didn't get to go watch them because I fell asleep on the freaking couch! I was sooooooooooooo pissed when I woke up (at 2 a.m.)! Then I was just in agony because I couldn't go back to sleep and my back and neck were killing me (damned couch!) :(

My Blues - do be do be dooooooo! I feel so freaking blueeeeeeeee!

Sooooooooo tired!

I am moving back in with my parents. These past few days I've been bringing all my stuff back home and... geez! I was amazed at how much "stuff" I collected over the years. I had 6 boxes filled with books! And... wow... I'm so tired that I can't even think straight! It's 8 p.m. and I really want to go downtown and check the book fair out... there's a blues band playing there today... and, if you know me, you know how much I love the blues! I'll have to muster up the energy to jump in the car and drive there. I'll tell you all about it when I get back home. ;)

Painting of a beautiful Thisle

beautiful oroborus

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oroborus

oblivion

Will you come out and play

or just sit to wither away?

Will you live as others before

or hide behind that iron door?

See the world with newborn eyes

whilst the rest of you slowly dies?

Will you smile at the sun

as I silently come undone?

Don't look away for a second!

or Death will come and beckon

for a life barely begun

not even close to being done...

For the love you could not find

because the fear of living blind

brought you to nothingness

far worse than loneliness...

It is the dark abyss that swallows

and nothing else follows,

no thought nor memory nor sin

only oblivion...

beautiful scotish thisle

The Magic of Ordinary Days

I was a brought up in a small town. When I was eighteen it was time for me to go away to college. I went to the city and I fell instatnly in love with it. The sounds, the smells, the lights, the people... everything seemed magical to me! I felt I finally was home. I never wanted to live and was resolved to stay there forever... Well... forever was just too long. I had to leave because I couldn't find a job. It was sad. And I thought I would never be happy again. And so a year ago I came back to my small town and took a job as a teacher (which was something I swore I'd never be). It was hard coming back here. All the people I grew up with are now strangers and all the places I loved to go to back in the city are nowhere to be found. The sounds and smells and lights I fell in love with were now replaced by... nothingness. I could not find joy in anything. But one day I woke up and went to school and realized that the bond I started to create with my students was growing stronger... everyday ever since I look forward to getting out of bed and going to work to teach and shape these young minds. These kids live in difficult times. I feel I should help guide them and help them not to make the same mistakes I've made. I'm still learning how to appreciate the sounds, smells and lights here... But one thing is sure, the stars and the moon seem brighter than ever here... and the smells started to seem sweeter than any smell I've ever experienced before. And the sounds seem closer to music. I stand alone but I stand tall and content. Happiness will slowly seep in...